So what now ?

I've been ignoring this big lump in my throat
I shouldn't be crying
Tears were for the weaker days, I'm stronger now
Or so I say, but something's missing
Whatever it is, it feels like it's laughing at me
 And I just wanna scream

 I found the one, he changed my life
 I'm supposed to be in love but I'm numb again

 There's no one to call
'Cause I'm just playing games with them all
The more I swear I'm happy

The more that I'm feeling alone

I don't know where to go
I don't know what to feel
I don't know how to cry